Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Blast from the Past

Hi. Remember me?

So I haven't written in a couple of weeks because I haven't ridden in a couple weeks. This lack of riding started to make me question if biking was really something important to me. Today, I answered that question so I thought I would share, but let me start at the beginning.

I had a bad day at work.

After a weekend of being sick, I returned to work on Tuesday feeling still a bit under the weather. So my brain wasn't functioning at its best and my day reflected that. I was determined to handle situations so I felt I was accomplishing something, but I didn't handle them as well as I should have so I was just a mess. I'd explain it in detail, but I work in it would be incredibly boring for you to read, but it lays the foundation for my next thought of the day.

Winning the lottery would help.

So on my bus ride home (late, since I stayed at work to try and amend my mistake) I started to wish that I'd win the lottery so I could start the flower shop or crepe place that I always fantasize about. It was a short-sided wish, much like my short-sided actions for the day. I know winning the lottery is nearly impossible and not really a good thing since money barely ever solves problems as opposed to causing problems -- but I was done thinking for the day and dammit I wanted to win the lottery to make everything better.

Then I started to think about what I would do if I didn't need to work and could just spend my time doing what I wanted to do. That is one thing money buys you: time. You all of the sudden can survive in this capitalist country without sacrificing over 40 hours of your life every week. So what would I do with the time?

Well, obviously the shop of my choice would be born. Maybe I would have a crepe place that also sold floral arrangements? Who cares really, since it wouldn't even matter if my shop made money. That's another thing money buys: license to be creative. Also, I would buy a house with a yard and plenty of space for Michael, the dogs and I to run around. The house itself wouldn't be too big though. I get creeped out by too much house. But really, a house that's around 2500 sq. ft is still 3 times larger than what we have now.

Anyway, I'm getting away from my point.

So a crepe/flower shop and a new house. What else? And that's when I answered my original question. I would want to spend some of my new found time biking. I instantly and honestly thought, "I'd definitely want to bike much more". And with that, my ridiculous tour-de-fantasy on the bus, served a purpose. I realized I want to bike. I love it.

Time to get back into it.


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